Follow-up -

I had a whole post written in response to all those who sent negative comments and questions to be regarding fear.  Instead of posting it, I deleted it.  I decided not to engage in the negative banter than would be created if I posted it.  For now, I will just say - please let me raise my kids the way I feel I am directed, and everything will be fine.

On another note - have you seen my eyes?  I posted a picture on Facebook yesterday.  Well, today, the left eye is still bad (if not a little worse) and my right eye is significantly worse.  Here, check it out.

The eye that's more swollen is my left eye.  That's the eye that I had the infection in first.  We are fairly positive that the infection is viral rather than bacterial.  I am doing drops in my eyes, but they have been fairly unsuccessful thus far in doing anything positive.  They have caused me to feel like I have sand in my eyes and they provide instant sharp pains behind my eyes for an hour or so after I put the drops in.

As I laid on the couch this morning with my eyes closed, I thought back on the significant physical pain I have felt over the span of my life.  My first surgery was when I was 7 years old.  I have had several surgeries, given birth to 4 children, and suffered many physical afflictions in the time since I was 7 and remember feeling physical pain.  Here are my thoughts....

Childbirth was painful (as one would expect).  Of the 4 deliveries I had, 2 were (semi) medicated and 2 were done with nothing (only because we learned that the epidural did nothing for me...) As you would expect (or as you already know) childbirth can be pretty excruciating pain.

Kidney stones takes childbirth to a whole different level.  Kidney stones is extremely similar to childbirth without the breaks in-between contractions.  It's constant.  The one great thing about kidney stones in place of childbirth is that once the kidney stone is "delivered" you don't have a tiny human totally dependent on you.  One that only sleeps in 2-3 hour stretches, wants to constantly eat (just remembering the breastfeeding pain makes me queasy), not to mention the physical recovery from childbirth.  Kidney stone recovery is just getting back to your regularly scheduled life.

My current physical challenges with my eye doesn't compare in pain to kidney stones, however, it is completely debilitating.  I really can't do anything.  I don't want to come into contact with people because I wouldn't wish this upon even my worst enemy.  Besides feeling like there is sand in my eye and sharp pains behind my eye, my vision is blurry and it hurts to physically keep my eye open. However, the sand feeling is worse when my eyes are closed. I can't watch a movie, I can't play games on my phone, and I can't browse Pinterest or Facebook.  Those all require my eyes being open. So, I lay on the couch.  Fighting between keeping my eyes closed because it's better for them and open because there's less pain when they're open. So, there you have it!

I am thankful for friends!  Messages, calls, flowers, and help!  My poor husband had to drive kids with me last night because I couldn't really see anything.  Please, be grateful for your eyesight!

Disclaimer: this post was typed mostly with my eyes closed and it was not proofread.  Please do not comment on spelling, grammar, or other mistakes.  Right now - I DON'T CARE!!