- Friends are not required to be close to help. I could feel the prayers and support from thousands of miles. It lifted me when I was weak and comforted me when I was sad.
- Friends that live close to me became my lifelines. They physically lifted me when I was down. They were here to dry my tears. They took my kids so I could go to the grocery store without 4 kids and smiled and listened when I needed it. Without them, I would have survived this, but I would be in a padded room right now.
- The Lord knows what we need when we need it! There were several times I got some pretty emotional news. A man down the street was shot and killed at the airport 20 miles from where Aaron was and the announcement of the death of Bin Lauden. Those are just a few. When all of these happened (or I found out about it), I wasn't alone. I had someone hear to dry my tears and lift me up.
- There were times that I could literally feel the arms of the Savior around me. I felt protected, loved and validated. Knowing that he knew my sufferings, my emotions, my feelings and my pains was so comforting. He became my lifeline.
- Not all things are about me. I came to the conclusion that this deployment was not about me. I was not supposed to learn some big lesson. Sometimes in our lives, we are given trials just to endure them and do it well. (D&C 121:7-9). When I read this, I felt a huge wave of relief. I wasn't being punished. I was blessed the entire time Aaron was gone. I earned every blessing that I received. I know that.
- I didn't realize how many people struggled with Aaron's deployment. (Again, not all about me.) Just because they didn't live with him or smell his morning breath didn't mean that they didn't miss him or worry about him.
- I take my husband for granted. In all aspects. I missed him so much. Not just the big things. The little things. Taking out the garbage. Holding my hand while we watched a movie. I don't ever want to do that again. I feel so much closer to him and our relationship is stronger.
That is just a few. I will add more as the days go by, but I want to remember how I feel now.